My sec 1 class that i'm in charge of is 1.3 and they are nothing like when i was in sec 1. they barely resond. but oh well. Sec 3 is going to one BIG year.
i hope i am ready. :)
HEY people!!!
Haven't updated in a while,huh? Guess what. My internet for my room wireless broke down so i can only use the study room computer and not my beloved laptop. Which is probably good,because God probably made that happen because when i want to do "research" i end up watching Seddie videos or cute and absolutely hot Nick videos and i sleep late and wake up late,thus giving my parents the image of me being an utter lazy bum. Ahem. Which i am SO not. Ahem. :)
So anyway, i went to KL,as you all may know, and saw my godsis, the Selena look-a-like Hana, and i've got pics of her! She may not look too pretty cuz my phone cam sucks to the core,but trust me,she is GORGEOUS. (so gorgeous my mum says she'll be married before me. thank you,mother. really) She and Ad were fighting like 50% of the time, and it was always one minute "Hana, do you love kakak?" and she goes "Yes" then "do you love Abang?" and when they're friends, she goes "yes"but when they fight, she like rolls her eyes and says "NO". Sigh. Kids these days. So melodramatic. I joke, I joke. :)
And we went to Sunway Lagoon on day 2! The place changed so much! No more Peter Pan pool. And Hana sorta got traumatized cuz at the baby pool slide some idiot-low-life-uncivilised-self-absorbed-inconsiderate ass of a kid pushed Hana and she fell and the stupid-idiot-irresponsible-nonchalant-bloody lifeguard did nothing about the pushing and shoving kids. On a slide. So my mum let him have it. And Hana sorta is scared of my dad. She's fine and happy when she's with my mum but when my dad's around, she just becomes a shy turtle refusing to come out of her shell. :) But on the last day Papa(my goddad) made her apologise and hug my dad.
During dinner of day1 papa brought us to this Arabian restaurant and Hana drank Hibiscus tea and went all high and friendly,even to my dad! She said dhe liked being interviewed, wanted to act in a film, and even sat with her legs crossed! Can you imagine a 3 year old doing that?? Plain adorable!
And while shopping, I made up a song!! well, not the whole thing,just the chorus, but i mean its good, judging by the stupid writer's block i had.
Tomorrow I've got school! Yipee! (that was sarcasm,in case you missed it) for the Sec 1 Camp dry-run, but at least i don't have to sleepver,i shudder jsut thinking of not being in the comfort of my toilet(i'm not spoilt,but i have this OCD where i can only feel clean in my own toilet,i dont know,i'm wierd) :) and the next day it'll be at Vivo since the games will be at Sentosa.
I CANNOT BELIEVE 2010 IS IN 3 DAYS.
oh yeah. and i got my braces. now i'm a braceface. and must wait 2 years to get my smile back.
And you-know-who hasnt updated his blog. AARGH. i wish i could just tag "Update,damnit!" but oh well.
Why do i even bother having a crush on this guy? I mean he doesnt even know I'm freakin alive, and evne if he did he would never in bjkzillion(not million, but bjkzillion, which is the product of billion multiplied by jillion and kzillion which gives us a hell of a lot of zeros) years be interested in me.
(i know,abang abil says i gotta have a positive outlook on life,because God gave life to me, and all that, but God made me a girl with hormones,and DAMN are hormones present right now. So i hope God forgives me for writing this,because its the spur-of-the-moment hormones not Lidia talking)
MY LIFE SUCKS. SCREW LIFE.
but of course i must add my trademark, SO SUCK IT UP SUCKERS.
[PEACE]
lidia. :)
ps. Sorry God. :(
This is Real(please gimme a better title!)
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
6:55 AM
Verse 1SO here I am, sitting in my roomThinking of all the possible waysThat I could meet youI'd try to make up those silly thingsLike what we' do, like what you'd sayWhen we were on datesChorusWhen I'm mad you whisper super sweet thingsAnd when I'm at my worst, and I don't wanna be seenYou're thereWhen I stomp of crying you run after meWhen I'm about to burst you catch me at the seamsWHen I'm hurt you say you feel all the painWhen I'm stranded you hold me in the heavy pouring rainAnd I hope that its true, you feel what I feelAnd I hope that you know, that I feel this is realVerse 2I'm thinking aboutHow we'd end upLaughing, playing, loving togetherSaying baby I'll love you foreverIts so obvious this time,You're everything, yu're Mr RightYou'd be worried sick bout me every nightCall me at 2am, make sure I'm alright(Chorus)BridgeBaby I'm an open bookThat's made for you to reafAnd everyday when you're hereI feel like I'm floating in a dreamBaby you're everything I've ever wantedYou're all that I can seWhen I need you mostbut I don't say a thingI close my eyes, then look upAnd you're there next to me(chorus)
You Came Along
6:46 AM
Verse 1Before you came alongI was everything but completeEverything felt so wrongAnd happy seemed so outta reachI wasn't living everydayAnd so much didn't fitHope kept leaving, and luck never wanted to stayAnd nothing ever changed me, until you didChorusI was everything but braveI was everything but strongI was never thankul for the things life gaveAnd I was nothing but wrongMy heart and soul were stuck in a caveI never knew where I belongedNever knew how a happy life would tasteBut that all happenedBefore you came alongVerse 2I never took risksNever met danger,Never took a chanceDidn't know life was sweeter(Repeat chorus)BridgeMy life was nothing but a big black holrANd my dreams were never coming trueI lost all track of my goalANd I never did nothing I wanted to doBut you found my heart, you found my soulAnd it was all because I met you(repeat chorus)
:) oh yeah. and Merry Christmas!
6:18 AM
YO.
So I'll be away for holiday at KL for 3days 2 nights! We'll be going to Sunway Lagoon and on the last night we'll be staying at Papa's and Auny Zana's! So long i never meet Hana! If you wanna know how she looks like, in about 10 years, she'll look EXACTLY like the picture of Selena Gomez. Trust me. Even my parents say so. And my mother did NOT like Selena in Wizards. So you can imagine how gorgeous my godsis will be huh?
And once again, you-know-who managed to break my heart into pieces ONCE AGAIN. Yesterday, my dad wanted to go shopping at Paragon at his faveshop, Raoul (and let me just add he got 8 shirts!) We left home at around 8pm. Today i went to you-know-who's blog and he wrote that (on the same night my family went shopping) that he was going to go out to TOWN with SOMEONE that night. And I'm like "whoa whoa whoa. rewind! so we were around the same place at the SAME time?? Say WHAT now??" But the part that hurt the most was when he sounded excited and put a couple of smiley faces when he said he was going out with THAT SOMEONE. But oh well. Maybe some things just aint meant to be,huh?
I know i'v been lazy and havent been putting up songs, so i'll put up another 1 or 2 and trust me, after the you-know-who and being in town incident, i have a heck of a lot to write in a song with THAT.
Anywhos, wish me luck, and enjoy the very last week of this much awaited and maybe not-so-well spent holiday! Oh yeah and I won't be here to wish it, so in advance, Have A Verry Blessed and Merry Christmas. Falalalala-lalalala!
[peace]
LIDI0
CIP and Hols
Sunday, December 20, 2009
11:14 PM
Whaddup peeps. So far, surprisingly, i am one of the first people who have finish all my homework! HOWEVER. Due to my monstrous penmanship, my parents have kindly requested that I re-type slash re-write my essays. SO i am in the midst of rewriting my Literature essay. But before this i was doing Sec 3 chemistry, since its my weakest link.On tuesday,i'm going to put in the metal seperators in my teethe and the next day we're off to KL! Then when mum and dad want to celebrate their anniversary(i don't know when,sadly) we're staying over at papa(my godfather) and Aunty Zana's place! Which means i can see HANA!(my god sister). We'll be staying at Sunway! YAY. so long never visit there... just so happen Natasha also going on the 24th! Sekali bump into here, probably will anyway! Hah. Dui Bu Ji, i havent been posting up songs(as if anyone cares) but i've been supppeeeeeer LAZY(i know,since when was i not) but its actually cuz i'm going through a writers' block!Like i have so many ideas, feelings and tunes i wanna pen down, but when i open my song book, my mind goes straight into a haze. UHH. I hate NOT writing songs. It affects my chee. (i always wanted to say that, whatever that means)I'm actually just updating cuz Cik Linda ask me to. Otherwise i'd be too darn lazy. :)Anyways, i'm a fan of Selena Gomez on facebook and she recently put up pics of her at a childrens' hospital and she looked like an ANGEL. She was glowing with beauty, and giving off the touching feeling of helping others, i was so moved i actually think that Selena Gomez is the defiinition of the word perfect. Like in the dictionary, when you search Perfect, it should say "example. Selena Gomez" or something.Oh yeah. And Kevin Jonas is OFFICIALLY married! Woo! get a baby qiuck,Kev! Nick will be an awesome uncle(?) hehe. :)
About you-know-who, yeah he totally just broke my heart again. He was going on and on in his blog about loving some girl form a distance, cuz he don't want a long distance relationship and he don't want her to find outn. UHHH. I am such a bitch. Why are you such a bitch,Lidia? Why? UHH. Total "You Belong With Me" moment. See? I WANT TO WRITE A SONG ABOUT THIS. BUT NO. MY BRAIN BLANKS OUT AT THE SIGHT OF MY SONG BOOK. Sherie sent me the song Oopsie Daisy. I sorta changed one part to suit how i feel. Now that my brain hates thinking of songs. Come on,brain. WORK, DAMNIT!Oopsie daisy,you hurt me again. Crushed my heart in the palm of your hand.hope you find me.[peace]
LIDS
Stuck
Friday, December 11, 2009
11:54 PM
StuckVerse 1I'm looking aroundTrying to find you,Hoping to spot your face in the crowdI'm feeling confusedEverything I've ever wantedThey're wstarting to come (pause) trueChorusI'mstuck in yesterdayTrying to find my way through right nowBecause I don't know what tomorrow wil sayTrying to find my place in where I amI'm still stuck in th epastI'm afraid that everything I've worked for is gonna fade to dustVerse 2I don't knowBut somehow I feelI don't recognise me anymoreI get a little scaredWhat tomorrow will briongBecause it seems like I don't know anything(Chorus)BridgeWhen everything you've ever wantedSeemed to leave you one by oneAnd your world starts breaking downAnd somehow destroying what you've built is all you've done(Chorus)Hope you enjoy it :)
[peace]
4th in Class
11:46 PM
YEAH. guess what. for Madrasah I got 4th in class! GUESS what my highest subject is. ARABIC. yes, i know right. me. arabic. whoa! i got 56/6o! 2 MCQs wrong. the listening and open ended all full marks leyh! haha. So altogether my percentage increase and once again in top 10, but not top 3....Anyway, I just remembered that on one of the exam papers i wrote a song called Stuck, so i'm going to put it up soon. I also heard Taylor Swift's Platinum Edition and the new songs are DAMN nice! and i'm like "why are some peole so damn talented! and she is such a beauty!" so i was like I have to write more songs so I don't lose touch. So then i wrote two more songs, You Came Along and Feelings For You. So right now, I have altogether 3 more songs! haha. GREAT.[peace]
LIDS
WORTH THE WAIT
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
8:14 AM
so here's the song bout you-know-who. it is, as you all may guess, called Worth the Wait.Verse 1I look up into the bright night skyAnd the shooting stars, they're shooting byI know he don't really workBut then I close my eyesAnd if it came true,That'd be great, that'd be niceConstant BridgeYou're making me walk around with constant smileBut its too bad you'll never know I'm aliveChorusI can feel the moon and the starsThey're shining shimmering twinkling down on meAnd I can feel as I strum my guitarThat you should probably find out how I feelWhy does it feel like you're so farAnd you somehow can't seem to seethat together right now is where we should beI know you're worth the fightI know you're worth the painBecause right now, yeah you're worth the waitVerse 2Sure those other girls they're pretty and they're everythingBut I'm sure once you give us a chanceTime will tell you that you won't ever leave me(Constant Bridge)Bridge (2)You're on my mindAt home and in schoolAs the buses pass me byOr when I'm up here in my roomI won't know if I don't trybut I'm scared of what you're gonna doYou never knew was aliveBut all I could think of was youmaybe then you'd realiseI'll be here waiting even if the storms come tumbling through(Repeat chorus)So that's the song. Hope it was nice. Heh.
Night all.
OR maybe morning.
[peace]
LIDS
I hope he's Worth the Wait
7:47 AM
Hey.
so. Anyway. After the amazing birthday surprises, i went to you-know-who's blog and felt my heart break. He was going on a date. ON MY BIRTHDAY. And then i tell myself that I am SO pathetic that i actually like this dude who doesnt know i'm even alive. And that he's probably met and dated girls who are prettier than Selena Gomez or Hayden Panetierre, and here i am, wishfully thinking that one day, he might fall in love with me. Oh who am i kidding. anyways, although he went on a date ON MY BiRThDAY adn my heart practically broke into a million pieces, something he said a few days later rocked my world to its core. First he apologised. Then he says its because he's not ready for a relationship. and i went THANK YOU GOD. but I really, truthfully, sincerely, with all my heart wish that if we meet, that he's going to be worth the wait. And i hope that I'll be worth the wait too.
i'm 14 baby
Sunday, December 6, 2009
8:15 AM
YOYOYO people! WHAT is up! hahaha. JUST FREAKING high and excited. ya know why. because I got the best present from my two lovely beautiful amazing great parents! guess what they got me! A RED VIAO LAPTOP!!!!!!! yeayyyy. kak shasha is still pinching me and i keep realising that this aint a dream!so remember how my dad said he wanted to bring us out go jalan-halan? well, actually, it was all planned! yup! it was a surprise birthday party! at Fish and Co. all my friends were there too! hahaha. best birthday yet! WOOO HOOO.then when they brought the cake out they made me stand on the chair and they did this cool birthday rap! with a sparkler and everything! hahaha.then me, kak shasha, kak bilah, abang abil, aun, Ad and my parents went shopping around Ion, which was where we had the party too! AWESOME time! got a watch from Rubi. same type but diff color with kak shasha and kak bilah. anyways. tomorrow filming starts for the CCA Fair thing and i'm the repoter!!! haha, awesome, man!all in all, i had a great birthday. AND IT'S ONLY 22 MINUTES INTO DECEMBER 7TH.
i thank God i was born, and i thank God for the blessed life He's given me.goodnight
[peace]
LIDS
movie marathon
Saturday, December 5, 2009
9:24 PM
SO. yesterday, when we were supposed to go to Night Safari, it freaking rained so my mum wanted to have a movie marathon. So me and daddy dragged mummy to follow us go get movies at Heartland Mall. We got like 10 Korean movies la. Oh! and guess WHAT! i finally got hold of the drama Love and Law! Its damn funny but was hard to find last time. then ask the lady if have My Fair Lady slash Lady Castle slash Take Care Of Young Lady but the say don;t have so..oh well.SO, about the movie marathon, first we watched 200 Pounds Beauty, and the woman so damn freaking beautiful lah! its lkie damn flawless lah her face and body. And the songs is all she sing herself! and she acts wonderfully! so darn talented and perfect lah some people. yes, i am sorta in my emo-life sucks moood now. pssh. hormones.So then we went up to mummy and daddy's room to watch the local movie Army Daze. So Ad and me brought down our pillows and extra mattress and slept in mummy and daddy's room sekali. Mummy fell asleep halfway, as usual. But the movie was damn funny! haha. you should check it out! I was totally thanking God that He made me a girl! even though we have to go through labour while giving birth and menstrual cramps, they probably definitely beat having 5BX every morning....guess what day tomorrow is! yup yup! DECEMBER 7 y'all!!! wo de sheng ri! (that is birthday, right?) anyway! kinda excited. finalllly 14! in 24 hrs! hehe. then the next day i extracting teeth for the braces. scared. (shudder)mum dad and Ad going to mr Shai's wedding. i told them i dont wanna go, say that i gotta memorise script for filming tomorrow. hehe. then daddy say he free so he wanna bring us put go jalan-jalan. and i'll put up Worth the Wait soon. and guess what. ya' know Miley? Yeah? WEll. Misss Montana got herself a tattoo. That says Just Breathe.
Under her left boob. i know right.
Yo.
2:16 AM
HEYY.
haven't written in like forever. but holidays have have kept me real busy, just like everybody else. i know, ironic right? Anyways, so today had to follow my bro to soccer even tho we came home from watching New Moon at like 1am. So mummy had to drag me outta bed and i had the shock of my life when she said that kak shasha woke uop earlier than me. haha. i kid, i kid. but seriously, it was shocking. then while Ad was at soccer mum brought me and kak shasha to eat prata. felt guilty. ate 2 leh. kak shasha ate 1. she so damn disciplined about the whole "lose weight thing" i haven't cycled for like 2 days.Anyway. after soccer drop Ad off to shower then mum brought me and kak shasha to Geylang to buy the movie Syurga Cinta (Heaven of Love), yeah the one with the really good looking dude. (Awal Ashaari) but he 28 and getting married in real life already, so that's an out for me (hahaha) Damn nice and sweet movie lah. the girl damn lucky cuz she got him to propose to her. sigh. and he's so....oh i'll quit babbling.So then caught up with sleep and woke up at arnd 5. Then went oline to try to watch You'r Beautiful and My Fair Lady (aka LAdy Castle or Take Care of Young Lady-yes, why Koreans love having so many freaking titles i have no idea) but stupid mysoju.com the link cannot work, then nicole told me to try viikii.com and dramacrazy.net or something like that but then it got "too many request" so cannot.THen got the 2nd shock of my life, when my dad suddenly called and this was how the conversation went.Dad: Hi kak, what are you doing?Me: Just woke up.Dad: Yeah, from sleeping the whole day, right?Me: No laa, from a nap.Dad: Ya and the nap started at what, 9am?Me: 4pm ok. (about to ask where we wanna have dinner)Dad: Do me a favour and google Night Safari. I wanna go there tonight.Me: WHAT???Dad: aiyo, i said help me google.Me: Night Safari? TONIGHT??Dad: YA lah. And tell Adli if he doesnt finish reading the book and his summary he's not following.so i'm writing this as i wait for my brother to do his book report and then Hello, Night Safari and nocturnal animals who will probably scare the hell out of me.oh well.i've never been there so pretty excited. then now my mum just reach home with a big bag of girl stuff that was on sale at metro for me. haha. yes, she still buys them for me.so today, i already help 2 cardiac-arresting shocks of my life and its only 6.30pm. the night's still young. And i wrote a new song called Worth The Wait, bout you-know-who(not Voldermort, please, before any of you crack that lame joke) and i'll probably post it up soon!yep.pretty much it! xoxo,
forever and always
LIDS
For 2.3 of 2009, Don't Look Back
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
1:46 AM
This is the last year 2.3 is going to be together, and with all the memories we've had, Í'm hating the fact we all have to go seperate ways. So, this is for 2.3, its called Don't Look Back.VERSE 1Do you rememberAll the things we sharedAll the memories we hadWhen we went a little mafSO we had our differencesSo we had our fightsBut in the end it's still you by my sideSure sometimes you need to crySometimes we don't see eye to eyeBut right now its time to say goodbyeCHORUSDon't regretDon't look backCuz when you say goodbyeWhat's waiting in front, is teh rest of our livesWe'll all find our places in this worldSo don't you worry, i'm here behind you girlSo i wish you good luckI wish you all the bestWe'll remember the good timesAnd we'll remember the restBecause what we have, it'll go on strongAfter we leave, long after we're goneVERSE 2Do you rememberWhen we got a little scaredAll the listening ears we lentAll the hand we've heldSo sometimes you feel like leavingSo sometimes you feel like breaking apart Don't shed a tear, don't cryBecause right now, its time to say goodbye,(REPEAT CHORUS)BRIDGEDon't give upDon't give in,Because everything you have,It can vanish in a blinkYou'll realise that effort pays offRemeber those sleepless nights we've hadNow you're on your waySo don't look back(REPEAT CHORUS)
LONG TIME NO SEE: Missed
1:23 AM
Its been a pretty long time since i logged into here. I've been writing quite a lot, but something UNFORTUNATE happened.MY GUITAR IS BROKEN. yes, it hurts just saying it. Anywho, here's a new song, for Gerry, since she wants an I miss You song. Its called MISSED.Verse 1I look up, and you look downI've got no idea where you're at right nowI dream so muchJust to feel againBecause when you left, you know everything changedI try to stand up, but then I break downAnd i'm trying so hard to stay strongI crave so much,just to feel your handPlease oh God give us one more chanceCHORUSTO be pushed when you're already downTo scream for help when you know no one's aroundTo stand there helpless waiting in the rainTo know nothing's gonna save you from this painWhen you're gone I don't know what to doI guess its just cuzI Miss YouVerse 2Once its right, It'll all go wrongI need answer, I've been waiting so longYour words, they linger in my earWhere are you, when I need you mostWhen i need you hereBRIDGEBecause when you're gone, I'm still reminded of youBecause when you're gone,nothing else comes throughBecause when you're gone,I start feeling all confuedBecause when you're gone,I don't know what to do,Because when you're gone, I MISS YOU(Repeat Chorus) (Fade out)
my fav original song now, When You Smile
Monday, October 5, 2009
5:51 AM
Verse 1I see you from a distanceYou're walking my wayWhen its time to leaveYou say baby please stayI see you from a distanceI can make out your smileThe way your dimples shoe can drive every girl wildI see you from a distance You're coming so closeThat grin you give me, i realise, is what i've missed the mostChorusCuz when you smileMy heart just stopsAnd when you smileI melt on the spotAnd when you laughI just wishWhat we have,forever we'll feelbecause when you smilemy knees go weakAnd when you smile, I dont feel the need to speakBecause when you smile, I know this is realAnd when you smile,I know its my life's completeBecause when you smile, I know its meant to beVerse 2Now we're starting down this roadAnd I'm feeling a little scaredIm embarrassed that it showedBut then you take my handWhen i have doubts, i dont know what to do You say its fine, if i think of youWell you're rightBecause I just have to think of your smileBridgeBecause when you smile My knees go weakAnd when you smileI dont feel the need to speakBecause when you smile,I can hear my heart beatBecause when you smile,I know its meant to beWhen you smile, my life's completeWhen you smile,I know that you're my destiny
GERRY'S SONG! It's called "A Girl like me before"
5:37 AM
Verse 1Its monday morning, and Im dreading going to school todayThen I'd rememberthe look on your faceWhen I push you to the groundOh some things just stay the sameWe're in class, its getting boringAnd I have to stare at your big fat headThen I'd push your chairAnd you'd fall flatAnd it'd keep me smiling for the rest of the dayChorusYou drive me crazy,You drive me up the wallI laugh when you're hurtI smill when you fallI'm so mean you can't believe it at allbut you know you've nevermet a girl like me beforeVerse 2April Fool's coming, and I'm planningA million pranks to play on youThe thought of you just freaking outI cant wait for it to come trueWhen we're runnung I'm always pushingyou out of the wayIts been like that since we were kidsOh some things never changeRepeat ChorusBridgeI crack up when you're bruisedI pretend I hate you badBut when you're near I have to moveSo you don't hear my heart beat fastI dont admit it, but i still do think of youbut no matter happensI'm still the girl you once knew
All I See Is You
5:29 AM
Verse 1You're standing across the roomI'm here feeling all confusedI'm trying to figure out what to dobecause in this noisy roomall i see is youA few days would come and goand I'm on my way to schoolI'd feel a little bored in classI look out the window, so all I see is youChorusYou're all I seeYou're all I breatheYou're all I thinkYou're all I needI melt at just the way you lookEverything you say just seems so coolI can't seem to know what to doBecause in a crowded roomAll I seem to see is youVerse 2Suddenly we're face to faceIn you're eyes i see the blueMy heart beats fastand All I see is youBridge (BEST BRIDGE I EVER WROTE!!!!!!!)Now we're standing here aloneAnd i'm feeling like a foolAnd you're giving me that smileThat sticks to me like glueThen you take my hand in yours what I'm feeling is newbecause from now until foreverbaby all i'll see is you